Freshman year. Take two.
This semester is going to be different from the last one. I'm going to step up my game, and I won't let frivolous little things get in my way. I asked AA to change my facebook password (because honestly, it's just too easy to deactivate and reactivate it again) so now I can't log on. I leave my phone downstairs by the front door so I don't get distracted by phone calls and late night texts. As for AIM, I'm always invisible and I'll only sign on if I'm done with my work, I promise.

Yeah, I can do this.
So. What do you tell a guy after he tells you he just broke up with his girlfriend?
Answer: "Oh. How did she take it?"
I'm such a genius. Wow, self, what the fuck was that. But I honestly didn't know what else to tell him. Congrats? I don't know how he feels about this whole thing. He said it's better for him because he doesn't really have time for a relationship, but whatevs.
Apparently, I have no privacy EVER anymore. Me, Babyface, and Yazzy went out yesterday before the new semester started and according to Yazzy, I'm too "readable". Well, thanks. She was sitting there telling me how I felt and what I was thinking. For instance, as we we were eating:
"You're so delicate."
"What?" I look at Yazzy, who's sitting across from me.
"Look how you're holding your toast. Like it's fragile," she nods at the toast I was buttering.
I didn't say anything back. What's that supposed to mean? Alright, I know I'm a 'fragile' peice of shit, but don't tell me it's that obvious.
"Fragile?" Babyface comes in for the save. "I think it's more graceful than fragile." She's awesome.
Or in the car:
"Why are you so quiet? What are you thinking about?"
Or when I'm freaking
laughing!
"That was such a half-hearted laugh! C'mon, let's hear a real laugh!"
Don't get me wrong, I love Yazzy (and Babyface) to death, but sometimes I wish Yazzy wasn't so blunt.
Goddammit. I don't have any privacy. Even my body language is being disected.

Okay, whatevs. Back to the present. So my day today wasn't too bad. Well, except for my calculus class. Fuck 8:30AM classes. The professor seems like a nice lady, but c'mon; it's too early to be doing math and integrating functions or whatever. Physics lecture was blah. 'Nuff said. Physics lab was okay, though, I guess. I wish the stupid T.A. hadn't moved me. My "new" group wasn't too bad, they all seemed pretty chill, but I wanted to stay with
them. Sigh. Maybe next week I can go back to them and the T.A. won't notice.
AA waited for me (and a friend) while my group and I finished our lab and then we walked to campus center. I hope I'm not making things weird or anything. I'm trying not to. I don't know what's wrong with me. All I know is that he's a distraction lol. I forget things a lot when I'm talking to him.
Maybe things are different because he's single?
But...how so?
Utterly Confused and in Need of a "Revelation",
xoxox